mixed feelings

So yesterday Dr. Hipolito came and talked to me. He said that hopefully either by the end of this week or the beginning of next week, Johanna will be discharged. Those are the words ive been waiting to hear for four months. I have everything ready and am so anxious, BUT, im also very nervous. Nervous that im not going to do as good of a job as i thought i would. All this waiting for so long, anxious to bring her home, and now im doubting my ability as her mother. I know everything will be ok, but im still nervous. I hope this goes away soon. On a different note, I found out why Johanna was puking like that, she has acid reflux. yea they said she should outgrow it eventually. well im off to the hospital...