and i feel like maybe i should update :)
johanna is doing well .. today was her 1st birthday. i remember when the thought of 1 was not to run through my head due to fear that she might not make it that far. i cried for hours today just looking at her, reminding myself of everything she has been through. she is such a fighter and i cannot express how proud i am to be her mother. she makes me a better person without any doubt at all. i cannot wait to see what other things johanna and i will get ourselves into.